Looking Back

Thursday, December 21, 2006

They say that "Ang hindi lumingon sa pinanggalingan ay di makararating sa paroroonan" For me, looking back at the past is nonesense, coz it will only make my journey melodramatic, I'll remeber what happened when I was there at blah.. ba ba blah.. And I dont like to be too emotional you know. Im a toughee. Past is past and it should be left behind.

Thats why whenever I look back at the past the first question I ask is "What do I need to learn from this experience?" I think, those memories come back to me coz theres something I needed to learn. Something I need at this very moment and time. Coz you know, I can be hard headed sometimes. I tend to do some things impulsively, so there.

Tonight, I recalled a few past relationships I had. Thats one of the things I dont like to remember, and what it always teaches me is Consistency, I really have a problem with that. Im very unpredictable and that affects my relationships coz Im an introvert, I like doing things alone. And whenever I try to get myself close to anyone, I can do it for just a while but not for long, after a few months I'll go back to the loner and feeling isolated self.

I can get by flirting and cuddling up with someone but I cant go beyond that, say, serious relationship? No. Im not up to that. All of them failed to make me feel secured and who likes the feeling of hanging by a thread? No one. Men go after me *cough* just because they want something out of me. Yeah, my companionship, humor and sweetness. Nothing more.

And besides, I think I deserve someone who sums it all up; someone who can make me feel secured, and at the same time someone far enough to see or be with personally. I dont know about you but thats why Long distance relationship works for me. Coz, I dont want someone I see everyday, please.

If I hurt someone along the way of  finding true happiness with my virtual boyfriend(or not) Im sorry, I really am. Just that I hate the feeling of expecting something and  nothing at the same time. Im tired of it, really tired of  it. 

Wish List

Hmm.. Its almost Christmas time and almost everybody if not all have their own wish list so, I thought of having one just to have one.haha.. So here it is my Christmas Wish List: Note: (+) is for I already got it.

1. Have someone special. (+) although im not really sure if its for real or just a pseudo type but anyway, I dont like to complain for now. I love to have him.

2.  My mom's health to be her best again and her operation to be over with positive result and speedy recovery.

3.  Peace and Joy all over the world.

4. Have tons of good movies to watch before and on Christmas coz Im planning to stay home all day long.

5. My family's joy and prosperity.

 

Nah. I'll stop this whole wishing thing because I know even before I say my wish to God I prayed and believed that I already got them, so what's the use of writing it all down right? And Christmas isnt just about gifts, money, and all those material stuffs but it is a celebration of Jesus' birth.

Ok, some say that it is not the "real" birthday of Jesus, I think so too, but hey they themselves can't tell when is Jesus birthday so might as well asume that His birthday is December 25. Anyway, the spirit of Christmas is remembering and recognizing the birth of Christ our King right? So, Im not complaining.

 Im eternally grateful for the goodness of God for giving His Son to redeem us from our sins, sickness etc. Im very thankful that if it wasnt for Him, by now Im still lost. I found myself in Jesus, thats why I praise and honor His name not only during Christmas but in everyday of my life.

I guess Christmas is everyday if you want to by the way the Occasion's not yours its Jesus' =)

 

6. I wish everyone will be happy this Christmas!!!! 

Guilty Pleasure

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

  

One thing I would never deprive myself into is, of course! Chocolates!!! Aside from coffee, I love, love love! Chocolates. I may sound exaggerated but I love it I really screw diet!haha.. love it especially the dark chocolates, Im not really picky and certainly not a brand concious, so whatever brand it is as long as it is DARK or anything with almonds, hazelnuts or any other nuts! I love it coz I go nuts over it!lol

YUmm.. My brother used to buy me cadburry when it's his payday sweet eh! *sigh, I miss those days. And everytime Im craving for one, and I dont have the money to buy it, I buy the cheaper ones the Goya dark chocolate. It tastes good too. Heavenly..

I also love raisinets, m&m's, kisses, hersey's or should I say I love them all? Right. I love them all!

Blogging World

I always love expressing myself through writing, I can say that I can express myself better with it than verbal communication. Im not the tolerator type, but when it comes to talking and conversing with other people about some important stuff, Id rather shut my mouth and let you do all the talking then I'll write it all down for you to read.

I've been blessed with a lot of good friends although most of the time I like being alone and do all the malling, movie marathon etc alone. I love to be sorrounded by friends, that could not always mean literally but just the thought that they are just there for you, praying especially when Im in a certain situation, they are my strength and I really praise and thank God fr giving them to me.

I met a lot of good friends in blog world too, so much that I cant get enough of their entry and wait for another one to be written. People blog not only for the reasons they are bored or they just want to kill time. But they blog to express themselves. Their love, hate, anger, crisis, thoughts that'll make you laugh and will left you thinking afterwards.

From the comedic-serious types, educational-spiritual, cooking-eating. What's hot and not, you can find it here, everything under the sun. And I feel so blessed that finally I get to remember my password to each blog I have and finally maintain it once in awhile if not everyday.

Merry Christmas to all!