Beat that!

The beat of the song best describes how happy I am with my life and my love right now. Im satisfied, What more could I asked for?

Teary-eyed

You Are
-Kirk Franklin

Jesus You are my joy within
You are the shelter from the wind
You are the forgiver of my sins
Jesus You are yes
Where can I go?
Who can I call?
Who's there to catch me when I fall
Your hands they hold me through it all
Everything I need You are

Jesus You are my cornerstone
You are my friend when I'm alone
You're the convictor when I'm wrong
Jesus You are yes
You're the peace within my storm
You are the shelter from all harm
I love it when You hold me in Your arms
Everything I need You are

Jesus You are my joy within
You are the shelter from the wind
You're the forgiver of my sins
Jesus You are yes
Where can I go?
Who can I call?
Who's there to catch me when I fall
Your hands they hold me through it all
Everything I need You are

(when I was sick) You are my healer
Thank You Jesus
(when I didn't had a place to stay) You are my shelter
Thank You Jesus
(when I found my self in trouble) You are my laywer
Thank You Jesus
(when my money ran out) You are my provider
Thank You Jesus Thank You Jesus Thank You Jesus

You Are

 Currently: Refecting on things
Mood: Undescribable 

If you’re happy and you know it read my blog :)

Mira, me, jc, mira. We're guarded by 2 mira's

 Me and him, mira me and JC

Bette

 Lark and me

From top left: Mira and me, jC and mira, mira me and jc, jc and me, me and larky, me and bette

That's how my weekend went! From shooting then meeting new friends. Spending time with quin, paid off every hard work I've done on our saturday shoot. I love having him around and it doesnt necessarily have to be seeing him everyday, sure, that would be great. But I still want to him to live his life and enjoy it without feeling resrticted. So.. there.

Fufunfun weekend that was and I'm looking forward for the next time!

Random Thoughts

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I'm sooo loving Yahoo! Messenger.

I'm so loving hassleness.

I'm so loving to wait in vain.

I'm so loving to stay awake.

I'm so loving dvd's and those who made them.

I'm so loving this day.

I'm so missing you. 

 Wala lang.

 Ever wanted to do something soo badly but it just couldn't work for you? 

"I need patience…"- Maria Mena

 Woohoo-

Shaving Cream

I'm the type of person with a short-term and selective memory maybe because of all the things I've gone through in the past, some of them are bad though I can't really distinguish which is which from this and that. And most of those experiences if not needed became like a dust in the wind. If I want to forget something, trust me to really forget it. 

It has been my escape from all the problems before. I feel like a 26-year-old lady in a body of an 8-year-old child. They always hear unexpected questions from me that never fail to give them a minute or two of a pause to give an answer. The reason varies, some think before answering me because they know I asked it on purpose, that I could use it against them or some think of the benefits if they answer me, it will make them feel good about themselves, the "Ang galing ko!" syndrome and some became confused on where I get that question and for pete's safety's sake, they'll refuse to answer me. 

But I seldom ask questions coz I like to do things and learn things by my own. It is very useful and convinient for me since I dont have to ask questions, I dont have to hear them blabbing about something intrarelated with my question and I dont have to just plain speak. 

My mind has too much storage for questions than the capacity I expect it to have. Problem is that it is so tangled up that I can't figure out a way to say it through the mouth. 

One night, as I was writing our shooting sched and while quin was at his lola's place, his granpa passed away early morning today. He told me, he went upstairs and lay on the bed and reminisce. It was like being warped from present to the past. Me, I don't have much to tell about my childhood since I forgot most of it.

Until he asked me where I grew up.

 The question made me realize I  had been a kid and I missed being one, I asked myself "San nga ba ako lumaki?"  The majority part of my childhood is still a blur for me. I just remember us, my playmates and I running across the streets playing tagu-taguan, patintero, almost all kinds of street games you know except the native games. It was fun.  That part. The dark part still remains a mystery even to me. 

I'm very thankful for having a person like quin around. My stress-reliever, pain-killer, asar-absorber, not all in a blatant way but I notice and appreciate everything. Both seen or unseen and consious or subconsious way. He has become a part of me. How it happened is something I'm trying to figure out until now. 

 As days pass, I am getting to know him more and more and more and in the process of getting to know him I got to know myself too. He made me feel that it's ok to be pissed off sometimes. The "Labas mo lang sakin lahat ng sama ng loob mo" gesture opened me up to him coz I am always known to be a person who can tolerate anything you throw at me, that had made me look like a strong person to others when in fact I was just covering whatever feeling I have inside and let it die by itself. 

(more…)

Tula.

Kabilugan Ng Buwan

Remember this quin? Arranged and poetrified!  

Taciturnip-taken

Your Mine. I'm Yours.

and everything else in between is

ours. 

Blissesness

Marya, finally is going through one of the most exciting and bumpy part of everyone's journey. It's not her first time to travel in that kind of road but the feeling's not the same as she used to walk through it, this time though, she's applying what she had learned from her past experiences. This time she'll just go with the flow and let time they spend to get to know each other or the time itself mold their friendship- to reach the peak before thinking about anything else. 

She claims to be happy and contented with her life, being single but even more now when she had her partner+bestfriend. She enjoys being around him too much it always annoy her if its time to say, bye for now. He makes her feel comfortable and just be herself, keeping no secrets from each other and have this routine of asking "Why?" and answering "Nothing." then laugh afterwards. 

Marya now has a rich inspiration and imagination that you will caught her almost always, daydreaming.

 to be continued…

You will only get tired of living when life becomes dull in your mind

Its been awhile since my last post, I dont know if this is what they call writer's block but anyhoo I'm back and hopefully for good. The entry doesnt have so much to do with the title, I just wnat to update some..

I was thinking of deleting this blog few weeks ago because I didn't find reasons to continue writing here anymore. Why? First, Im having fun writing tagalog post here , I'm also busy with my work, my short story entry for Palanca, church activities and my extra curicular activities.  Secondly, this blog wasn't even visited by people, kuya mark who happens to be a daily visitor decided to delete his blog, and that's it. All my friends in blogosphere were all in blogspot or livejournal.

My journey here is starting to get boring everyday due to lack of people commenting and all, but after my *inarte mode. I realize why I made this in the first place. Blogging isnt just about who reads who, how many reads what nor how often you are visited. But this is just about you or rather ME.

Coz if my old visitors doesnt want to come back here, maybe because I aint worth reading or I aint worth seeing. (now, this is starting to get a little personal.lol) but come to think of it, No blogger starts to be most visited, it takes time, it takes a lot of posts, a lot of links, a lot of patience and a lot of bloghopping.

Its automatic everytime I bloghop, I use http://sintaxko.blogspot.com at tags, comments etc. when marya.i.ph is a lot more shorter and easier to type. I think its called classical conditioning, I had my Scratch Papers months before I made marya.i.ph but  I love them both just the same.

And now, I hope I can write here again consistently even without visitors or readers, I must get back my head on why I blog, and that is to take down my daily journey and experiences in life that will surely be useful in the future..

So… WEEBEE! (Welcome back!) Self…hehe